I havn't poseted in a while.. i guess in a way this post is mostly for me since i converted to myspace there isn't really a way to consecutively post other than a blog..and its just not the same..

Life is good..im not dating john anymore.. somthing just wasn't there or just wasn't right and i didn't feel the same way anymore. Its unfortunate because he was a great guy but it just wasn't there-somtimes you just can't explain it more. I've been working with Lexie (arab mare) alot and her progress (and mine) has been great. She is so eager to learn and quick at that. She takes everything you have for her and uses it. I really love her.. i realized that. i was sitting in math and (unless your a horse person you're probebly like What?) I just wanted to hug her..just to be near her.. ill add pictures for anyone who ever still looks at my site..

Im going to prom with a friend..my best friend's boyfriend's best friend to be exact. He's a nice guy but i just see us being friends and from what im getting from him and from sam (best friend) talking to mark (doug*the guy*'s Best friend and sam's boyfriend) thats not where he wants it to go.. but we'll see..

I have work later (Big Boy) and junk..no Lexie today but tomorrow :) :) here she is .. hope everyone is good!

Currently Listening Me & My Gang By Rascal Flatts GREAT CD! see related

Life aint hard but its too long living like some

                                   country song

Things are (**(%#(%^ Awsome lately..

               Im just happy

                            yeah things are so far from perfect .. i just got done being sick for the last 3 day no work no school.. no riding

                                 I don't care

                                              Life goes on

                              Thanks to taylor i saw these amazing lyrics.. so true for me in a way:

its breathtaking to think of you and to learn that sometimes the only way out is through its mindnumbing to think of yesterday i'll run to you now if i could but things have changed

(i heard you say) its enlightening to think of the breeze and to believe in things that we can't see(so here we go)

lets show them how to live accept the pain always forgive

 watch the sun go down learn the sound of
following all that is complete

its breathtaking to think of you and to learn with our fate that the sky isn't as blue its mindnumbing to think of
yesterday we'll look toward the stars and dream that we're airplanes

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then, and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though goin' on with you gone, still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm okay but that's now what gets me

(CHORUS):
What hurts the most, was bein' so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin' what could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was trin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you
Everywhere I go, but I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed
Livin' with this regret, but I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved
In my heart, that I left unspoken

ever have a song relate to a horse problem.. i know im lame

I just miss gus so bad.. am i ever going to get over that?

         its my own fault..

Bye guys..i don't ever talk to anyone on here anymore..

 of course ill prob still IM/Comment tay and alyssa

 i have a myspace.. imjustagirl0789

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Currently Listening Feels Like Today By Rascal Flatts WHAT hurts THE MOST see related

Thanks for the comments alyssa <3 :) I just babysat tonight..rode lexie earlier ..saw john at soph. visitation day for a whole 5 minutes but lately five minutes is like..last time we really did anything was sunday at the dusty and now im leaving tomorrow for welmington and i don't think im going to get to see him untill next thurs.. is this going to work?

                 But he's great..i still didnt tell him i love you though (i did tell you about that whole thign right alyssa?) Im really starting to think about telling him i do on valentines day ..i just need to think about it and if im really ready to ..ect ect..

                   Lesson tomorrow..im tired..leaving tomorrow night..im tired..

                                 zzz night

Currently Listening Breathe By Faith Hill If your gonna fly away-don't fly without me... see related